Life Changing Lessons I've learned from living with Depression

Depression - deep dark hole been constantly fighting for quite some time now. I was diagnosed with clinical depression also known as major depressive disorder. It was like a black hole trying to pull me down, making me feel lifeless, engulfing every part of me.

For a long time, I was in denial and in doubt that depression is real. My environment has considered depression or mental illness equate to being insane or crazy. On the other hand, I am also trying to protect my image and persona. I always believe that I should be stronger and braver even deep inside my pysche has been shouting.

Don't get me wrong, this blog will not teach you how to overcome depression and I'm not yet there as well. But, this journey has taught me immensely and there are lessons helped me cope on a daily basis.


Go! Shout for help

Many times I refused to ask for help, thinking that people will judge or I am just making this up in my mind. Let me tell you, it is real and you are not alone! Please call someone and ask for help. The time I realized to call for help was when my relationships has been hugely affected. My actions and daily function was not normal anymore.

There are emotions, behavioral changes and mental issues you will not understand on your own. These can only be explained and well understood by professional. Seek for therapist, life coach, psychologist, counselor or psychiatrists help.F*ck all the stigma or what people will think about you. Your life is more significant.


Forgive yourself

After a couple of sessions with my therapist, we figured that all my issues came back from childhood. There were traumatic experiences, being compared and not being affirmed has taken a toll in my well being. Situations who were out of my control or may have not understand during that time cause I am naive and just a little girl. We are working on how I can let it go and forgive myself. This may be a longest process, but I am willing to walk through this. Primarily forgiving myself had helped me a lot to deal with my issues. Whatever is holding me back must let go. Setting myself free and allowing my psyche to grieve has put me into a better disposition in life.

It will not help if I continue to beat myself from the past mistakes or things I had no control. Learning the art of letting go and forgiveness.


Self Care

Putting yourself first doesn't mean you are being selfish. How can we take care of others if we don't love ourselves? You can't give something you never had.

I started giving my self some personal time. Enjoying the activities I love and nourished my soul. Going back to dancing, writing journals and traveling has given me the outlet to release and have reduce my anxiety. Go back to the things you love.

“When you recover or discover something that nourishes your soul and brings joy, care enough about yourself to make room for it in your life.”– Jean Shinoda Bolen


Not everyone will understand (Hey! It's okay) 

This part has been the most difficult phase in my road to healing. Telling the people closest to my heart has been difficult. Tons of doubt clouded my mind: will they accept? will they understand? will they help me? will they stay? My heart has been crashed and broken to pieces in this process.

In this process, I found true friends and the people that will never give up on me. I also learn to made peace that everyone will not understand my situation, and hey it's okay. I am not doing this for them. Remember, self care! You are doing this for yourself.


It's not forever

Hang in there. It will come to pass. Believe me. Life will get better again. Don't give. Let's not give up and fight together. Send me a message! Let's talk and share our experience together.

We will make it and see that life is beautiful.